2 love is a gift, 2 be loved is a blessing...

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Blessed

wah cant believe i so long neva update le...k k so heres my long awaited update! =)

haha wohoo so many happy things has happened recently...just so unbelievable isnt it?...haha...hmm 2 name a few...

1. got our cls jerseys at last!...cheers im *eugene!...no.10!...lol...

2.06S42 is officially the fastest j2 cls in vjc!...chao diao!...=)

3.got a new red adidas jersey which is super nice!

4.vday is super meaningful n ultra sweet!...*winks

5.im just sososososososososo happy!!!...=)

oh n tok abt double happiness eh?...ha but rly ah zhen bu gou pen you leh...tsk...

lol n so red revo's operation is unintentionally a success!...lol...

oh n i just have 2 mention manu's win last nite!!!...wohoo wat a smash n grab!!!...ha i celebrated until my bro said im siao...lol...ronaldo rox sia!!!...

had a superb dinner on fri too...haha...happy happy...=)...more happy meals 2 come!...

ha n 2day is an absolutely lovely day!...gonna mark this day down!...haha...super sweet eh?...=)

oh man i wanted 2 say lots de but suddenly cant rmb n some things just cant be said here...aargh...oh well as long as u noe n i noe...haha some things no need 2 be said out de...rite?...=)

ALL THE BEST 4 SPA N CTS EVERYONE!!! =)

JIAYOU ARC 4 NTU SHOOT TOO!!! =)

im just sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

BLESSED!!!...=)

只对你说

站在寂寞的舞台上

灯光下拖着自己的影子

音乐重复我们共同的忧伤

不是每一次的演唱

就可以淡忘明天没有你

in my heart we'll never be apart

残留手上的香味提醒我

在数位相机里留下的承诺

每一封简讯传出的思念都对你说

(sarang haeyo)means i love you

代表着我离不开你

每分每秒每一个声音

只有你撒娇会让我微笑

(sarang haeyo)只对你说

i will love you and forevermore

我答应 baby you will see

每一个我都属于你

oh baby i will love you because

我都属于你

Devet10's heart was taken at 6:48 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007

Losing It

im living in a nitemare now...n i just cant wake up...things r at rock bottom now...im devastated...stressed...barely hanging on... =(

no matter how i mug...my memory just fails me...

no matter how i train...i just cant shoot well...

sometimes i wonder...i shd just drop out of sch...i cant seem 2 study now anw...everything seems so foreign 2 me the more i look at it...everything dun make sense...its so damn frustrating n demoralising...the last time i felt so clueless during class was when i had my jap lessons...n im the only guy in cls...sitting alone...remaining silent each time im called to ans a qn...tts wat happened during econs...tt sense of helplessness came back 2 me...n it sux...i dunno whether i can study anymore...i seriously doubt so...haiz...

im getting easily irritated oso i think...more moody...more agitated...

like how i now hate the gayness of some ppl even though its only 4 fun...it just sickens me now...thus 4 my strong reactions nowadays...

like how i question ppl's actions n their motives nowadays...i mean if i say i shot lousy n dun feel like showing u my cards can u pls stop asking me 4 it?...i noe u shot well n u r more zai n i feel happy 4 u...really...but i rly cant be compared 2 u so dun make me feel worse...just trust me when i say i shot badly...u have my word 4 it so u dun have 2 ask 4 my cards...haiz nvm...

like how i feel wronged n have 2 defend myself now...unlike the past when i just let the matter go...hey im not the one tt kicked the ball against u so can u dun put all the blame entirely on me?...u make it sound like i purposely instigated him 2 kick the ball at u...n u didnt even hit/scold the culprit but instead took it out on me?...tsk wth...

aargh nvm me...forgive me 4 my outburst...im rly rly stressed up...cos nth's gg rite 4 me...sry 2 all the ppl im referring 2 above...u noe who u r...im sry...yah...this is not the eugene u all noe...cos im having a crisis now...hopefully the old eugene will be back soon...wish me luck...haiz...

sry 4 gg hm early 2day too...i figured i need some time alone...hope u understand...

bring me back 2 life...

Devet10's heart was taken at 8:18 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

STRESSED

AARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im just so fed up wif myself...when can i eva manage my time properly?!?!?!...experiencing workload congestion now...its just neva ending...seriously dying...=(

how long can a man fight the darkness...b4 he finds it within himself?...

yah...the qn is how long?...

just so damn stressed...but dun pity me...

*****

well at least theres still stuff 2 be happy abt...

like watching manu scoring goals 4 free =)

like watching SG defeating sportsmanship-LESS thais =)

like enjoying trg wif arc =)

like enjoying austin's company late at nite n when he spends his time wif me =)

like seeing austin greet me when i reach hm =)

like enjoying the company n concern of my closest friends =)

like knowing tt im still fighting on n digging in =)

i just love being happy =)

Devet10's heart was taken at 7:57 PM

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Red Revo

06S42

ARC

CHS

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