Severely Jaded

aargh im so sian diao...severely jaded...hate this feeling...somehow i have a feeling work is not gg 2 be as fun as b4...n best still i gonna have the experience of working alone...n im getting tired of 120 shots alr...cant seem 2 maintain my focus...furthermore no shows 4 me 2 look forward 2...jue dui superstar maybe but lingyi is out...haiz...worse still theres no new songs 4 me 2 enjoy!...i feel so dead...so lifeless...only thing 2 look forward 2 is probably soccer n finally getting the stuff i want when more paychecks arrive...haiz sian...:(

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haiz y m i feeling like this all of a sudden?...y cant i stop myself from thinking?...

i need my self-belief back...motivation as well...i need 2 play soccer 2 get my mind off things...

it shall be the last name...

stop this...

its not gonna change...

zhu ding de...

aargh getting emo...:(

someone bring me back...